星 . 心

有人说
心 一旦碎了 就永远合不起来了
即使合起来了 也会留下淡淡的伤痕

我的心
不知在多久以前留下了许多莫名的疤痕
当我准备再次站起来时 才发现 心 早已伤痕累累

有人问我说 为什么你都不会生气 之类的
我想说 生气起来会很累 而且心也会痛 所以就偷偷地把生气吞进肚子里了
虽说 这样可能会更伤自己
但我想说 或许这样大家的摩擦就不会太大吧
无所谓

此时 心 的某个部分正在碎
无所谓吗 ?
我不知道

从小 我就是家里常被打 被骂 被说教最多的那个
照理来说应该习惯了吧
都19年了
只有眼泪还不习惯
果然 我最在意的人是她吧

才发现
为了避免与她发生不必要的争吵
我让自己有了早睡早起的习惯；
为了让她看得起自己
一直努力地让自己进步

一直一直想出国
就因为只有在外地
她才会显得更加地温柔 更加地关心自己

就因为她
心 也因此留下那么多的疤痕

我不怪她
也不能全怪她
或许是自己的懦弱败给了自己吧

一个人的世界
真的很累

什么都不想做
什么都不想理

就让宁静的夜 及能寄托的床和枕头
陪我无赖下去吧

T-shirt printing

This was my final outcome of silk stencil on paper..
[ Credit to Jeff for helping me ]
The colors could use in T-shirt printing too..
It was so nice! Don't you think so?
[ Am I brilliant? Hehe.. ]

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Yea.. This was the thing that I found interesting recently..
Because with the materials that I have now..
I can simply create a image that I wanted and print it at T-shirt~
There was so many pictures that I wanted in my T-shirt btw..
That's why during Sunday morning market, I asked my mom to buy me 3-4 plain T-shirt..
[ Since it does only cost us 5 bucks each ]

Aiks..
Unfortunately assignments are seems to be over loading nowadays..
Gotta fasten my footsteps dy..
I will add this mission in the coming semester break!

不再

不再对过去留念

不再对未来憧憬

脚踏实地的走现在的路

向最初的梦想前进

Missing old days.

Recall back to old days.. when I was about 10 years old.
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Madam Wong -
Ballet Teacher
Can be fierce or friendly sometimes
A mother of 2 children
Passionate about dance
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I remembered that she asked us what we wanted to do when we grown up..
I was hesitate to tell her the truth..
Because I do clearly know that I don't want to be a dancer..
And I was afraid that she will dislike me just because of that..
[ I was once kena scold then cried, and after that I hate to dance ]
When it was my turn to answer her question..
My mouth naturally pop out with a word -
Artist or Designer.. [ I forgotten ]
But what made me surprised was not my answer..
It was her reply..
She asked me to draw for her a ballet dancer in future..
Lolz.. shocked.. but I do feel pleased..

Thinking back now make me realize that how funny am I..
I was trying to search back my ex- ballet classmate but I failed..
Sigh...
I wanted to keep my promise sincerely..
I wanted Madam Wong to be surprised...
And what do you think?
I missed them lots and lots..
Kinda regret for didn't keeping their contact number when I was about to leave.. =[

KitMun, HockLim, Rachel... where u guys been..?

Ms.Lazy and Ms.busy.

    

Yea.. you should call me Ms.Lazy nor Ms.Busy...
Since this semester is heading to its end..
Final projects and some troublesome assignments was always the one which serve us..
Tired, was the word that you will hear from me everyday..
ZZzzzz..

Too much things that I wanted to do but there's also to much things that keep delaying me..
I know that shouldn't rush it at the critical moment yet my laziness worm keep distracting me..
Ish..
I must focus and I need focus..
I cant give up like this, be strong ..

Pu z z le .

“ You are the piece.”

   We all fit together,
   smoothly, snugly.
   But so easily we can all be taken apart,loosing everything.