全英公开赛

第一次到现场支持李崇伟
却没想到没那个运气
由于他手臂伤势的关系
不得不在第二局喊停
不过我还是希望他能快快康复
在来临的 olympic 比赛再次打败林丹

虽然说有了这个小小的遗憾
不过能见到老朋友们
我还是挺开心的
毕竟大家要见面不容易啊
一起屏住呼吸
一起大喊加油
一起享受紧张的氛围
哈哈
独乐乐不如众乐乐

累了整天
该好好休息了

The three

Back to the old days..
I couldn't remember how long it was before we laugh and gossiping like this
But it certainly doesn't effect much our relationship
and I am really glad about that
Though everything seems to be happened yesterday

Talking about our dreams really does recall me a lots of memories back there
Especially the time we spend together
What a fate
Maybe after a few tasks and we are going back to the starter point
The circle of life huh?

Been thinking a lots of things these days
Nothing much to talk about because it's pretty random haha
Hopefully things will turn out better and better as I do have faith with me
Be optimistic yea :D

未来

最近爱听的几首歌
都和世界末日有关
如果你问我信不信这些
那我会跟你说
不管是真的也好还是假的也罢
我就爱 活在现在

未来
说真的
我还真不喜欢大人们这样逼迫你去想你的未来是如何的
因为这问题对我来说
就是一个问题
即使你把未来安排的好好的
这不定性变数有多大呢
你我心中有数吧

当然有个长远的目标是好的 我不否认
只是
你确定这是你要的未来吗？
因为不确定
所以我想把现在做好最重要
未来什么的
到时再说吧

我想就是因为我这样的想法
所以近期给自己打的口号是 要做就要做的最好
当然
这说着挺容易
做起来 嗯 怎么说
最好的定义是什么？
一切尽力而为吧

最近的讲座都跟 未来 摆脱不了关系
虽说我不喜欢去想未来要怎样
不过我觉得在未来还没来到之前
如果能武装配备都齐全的去面对它
那是最好不过了

有好一阵子没用电脑画板画画了
在我从新拿起它 面对它的时候
我想有半年多了吧
虽然当初挺后悔退了TOA之后
没和朋友讨教这方面的学问
毕竟这是自家慢慢研究的本领
没上过课的
所以我想 这技术还是有差吧
幸好 我想是因为一直以来都有保持着喜欢看他人作品的习惯
这比我之前画的有稍许进步
算是对自己有个交代

话说回来 这近期内的讲座会有提到 CV / Portfolio
我想我能摆上 portfolio 的好作品不多
所以要在这方面好好努力了



呵呵 在这里先卖个关子
待我没那么忙时
可能会create个blog然后放上我的作品 =D
各位就敬请期待吧

平淡

除了我之前说的忙于功课之外
我想我目前的生活状态很是平淡
当然偶尔会有一点小小的波浪
但我觉得这样 很好
我也很知足

不知道是因为在这里的社交圈子不大
所以没了那些以往繁杂琐碎的事情
很多事情
只要以平常心 旁观者的角度来看 来想 就好了
当然太平淡的生活 会很容易厌倦
偶尔也想做些疯狂的事
但我想目前的生活就让它这么暂时维持着吧
毕竟我想有些人想过也不能
何乐而不为呢
一切就让它顺其自然吧

自从来了英国后
跟家人的关系好像有比较好一点
特别是妈
毕竟以前要和她沟通比较困难
现在好了
可能是因为距离 还有透过视频聊
要聊什么就聊什么
不会因为要顾虑什么的而看脸色之类的
噢
咱俩总算是像样的一对母女了
这件事也让我很开心做了一个对的出国留学选择
当然
原本六人口的一家子
如今只剩下三人
大大间的屋子
多了一点寂寞 少了一点吵闹
我想爸妈要适应也不容易
只希望他们过的好好的
衷心的祝福
大家快乐 安康







希望我的笑容
能带给你们无限的温暖

报告报告

有好久好久了
我想这里的灰尘应该有五层楼那么高吧
是该好好反省了
真的得好好反省下

好吧我这就去反省
不多写了



哈哈
好像很久很久没这么说冷笑话了
事隔几个月
怎么过去的事这么看似那么遥远呢
很多事都要用 ‘ 很久 ’ 来说
时间作弄人啊

如果要我给个合理的解释说为什么这么久都没写部落格
我想 我这么说你会说是借口
亲爱的你就放过我这么一会吧
我如今又有动力和勇气的从新开始
虽说不能保证次次都准时写出东西来
但我想
不会再让它堆那么多灰尘了

好吧 原因如下
刚开始的适应期间
说真的 我觉的我过的蛮糟糕的
不知道说糟糕 是合适的形容词不
但总而言之
就是不好！
那
我为什么会在你问我时
我跟你说我过的还不错呢
第一，我觉得再怎么糟糕 我相信我还是可以应付的
第二，既然来了 这些问题自然要自己去承担
第三，我的性格 你不是不知吧

虽然我感到很庆幸在来这里之前有要好的朋友可以问东问西的
不过很多事情不是说靠其他人就好
更何况我想在最短的时间里适应并学会独立
所以要我麻烦其他人 我做不到
当然苦也是自己拿来的 你也可以这么说
至少目前的我觉得还是值得的

我的害羞及怕生的性格
来这儿前我真的不知道它有多厉害
或能有多厉害
天啊，你不会知道我之前是如何过的
虽说刚来的时候人是有认识几个
但我那我自己也搞不清楚的个性在短时间里
你说说能熟上的又有几个
就这样
能疯的时候
也就是和家人skype的时候
所以家人都问我干嘛每次和他们聊都那么high
我当然是这么说 “ 看到你们就很开心吖 ”
这是事实
只是没跟他们多解释还有什么原因
虽然我这么说我也能看得出他们还是很担心我
不过就不要再让他们更担心了

至于学业呢
当然也好不到那里去
毕竟从diploma转来degree
还有不同的教育制度和方法
语言 以及 文化
要慢慢去适应的东西可多呢
我在这里也可以跟你们说上个学期拿到的分数挺烂的
虽然过关
但你让我从小到大在一个充满竞争和比较的环境里长大的人如何不去介意呢
噢
懊恼
当然这学期的功力
得用的比之前的要多要多
才不会对不起自己 对不起家人

近来过着是忙的透不过气的生活
除了功课还是功课
我只知道我能我必须做点别的事情
不然可能会疯掉
所以你才能在我 fb page 里看到我花心思做的料理
做的好吃又没人分享
只能拍拍照 post 上 fb 让大家 like 让自己爽下
没办法啊
不想花时间看电影看连戏剧 或玩网上游戏之类的
只能这样呗

好了
今天的报告就写到这儿了
太久没打拼音还真有点吃力及毫时间

各位
一起努力往梦想前进吧
对了我忘了说
现在的我
真的真的过的还不错 : )

无奈

又是一个星期一
很快的 一年里的最后一个月就要来了
奇怪的是 我这才察觉
自己浪费了许多时间在毫无意义的事
当然 自己定义的‘毫无意义’是否是真的毫无意义
我自己也拿不定
无奈

今早一起来 感觉真的很不舒服
无法形容那样的感觉
总之 那样的不舒服真的足够把我瘫倒在地上
我想这疼痛的来源肯定是自己拿来的吧
想想
就因为前几天吃的比较好
后来那几天就随随便便应付各餐
喔 这不是自己拿来的吗

后来怎样呢
在这样不舒服的情况下
我逼自己给自己做了一份还算豪华的早午餐
总算把不舒服这件事告一段落
哦 真是庆幸啊

后来听室友们说
他们今天的presentation到很迟才下课
要感谢老天爷没让我晕倒在厨房吖
不然真的就大件事了
哈哈

吃了豪华的早午餐后
心情也比较好了
对着镜子 看看苍白的脸色也渐渐回复正常了
总算让自己好过一点
可恨脸上的青春豆开始出没
这也没办法啊
谁叫我最近睡觉的时间很不定
无奈

开了skype
不见爸妈在网上
有点小小失望
于是找了哥哥和singma聊聊
真高兴大家都过的还算不错
也为自己还没忙到像他们那样小高兴了一下
哈哈
有人聊真好

一个人整天待在房间里
有时会想
我会不会是个很孤僻的人吗
我只不过是不想麻烦其他人而已
也不想别人这样觉得我这个人只会添麻烦 很脆弱
难道这些都是借口吗
不知道

房间里贴了几张鼓励自己的纸条
是时候再多贴几张了

我，要快快振作起来

所以你也要

Hello

亲爱的你们，近来好吗？

在英国已经快要两个月了
请原谅我把这里给荒废了
并不是忘记了
只是有太多太多太多话想说
不知到要从哪里开始

不过我总不能因为不知道要从哪里说起
而永远就这样摆着吧
而且我也没有写日记的习惯
故事摆在心里久了
以我这个健忘的个性
也会被渐渐遗忘吧 哈哈

好了 不多说
我就很随性的开始我的故事吧

很喜欢这个古香古色的国家
这里的人们 都很友善
至少对我而言大部分的人都是
走在街上 看着路人们 我都觉得挺有趣的
猜猜他们从那个国家
猜猜他们在说着哪一国的语言
噢 就这样一直猜一边闲逛
有好几次还不小心撞到他人
哈哈
我想这也许也是因为我对他们来说很小只吧
呵呵
嗯

如果你想问我过的好吗？
那么我一定会这样说
‘ 我很好 ’
至少我也是这样对自己说
尽管周遭的事情没来的那么顺利
不过至少我还可以 还能应付
也还没疯掉

我 过的很好

朋友们 家人们
我想你们了
我也不知道这样写
竟能让自己流下眼泪
哈 我很诚实吧

我 还是我啊

对不起
如果我不小心让你们担心了
你们也知道我的
什么都自己来
最怕麻烦别人了
哈哈

别担心哦
我会更坚强的

Furnishing ll

It took about two weeks time and finally !!!!
Nothing much to say here..

About the paintings..
Have to do it on time before those furnitures move back to their place..
It was dad's idea btw..
Even though I had said it long time ago.. but never do it LOL
Doesn't make sense for me to complete this task because I can't believe myself either..
Haha.. But I did it~
Guess I am unbelievable right?
Please don't think painting the wall is an easy job to do..
I will be honest here that it's really tiring @@
For someone who hate to move around like me..
This really makes me half dead..

Will be dealing with the overseas stuff after a short break..
Hopefully everything will be alright ^^

Furnishing

This is really sudden..
After my mom complained about the floor's tar..
And asked someone repaired for us..
Things that I thought should be over turns up another way..
The uncle who did the repairing said the floor would be nicer if we did a refining.
My dad who is already busy with his company business told me '' since the things has come to this way, why not try to complete it? ''
...
'' So we need to move the things away? including those furniture? ''
/ look at the living hall and study room, there's LOT of stuff! /
'' That's for sure. ''

Ahh..
This is really freaking me out..
Since I am the one who is SO free at home..
Without a doubt, I am in-charge with moving out, cleaning, placing the stuff..
.......

This picture was taken after the floor had cleaned and things were carried back.
I had made a little arrangement with my interior design's skill LOL
It's definitely looks better compared to the past. More tidy and nicer :D

Farewell

' Buhbyes... ' was the last word that I barely spoke out when sending him away in airport..
Arghh.. is there any other things that I wanted to say to him?
Not really..
But this might be the farewell to the two of us for this moment till I graduate..
I will add 'if lucky' behind this sentences..
Since I won't be attending the graduation ceremony of him next year and coming back for CNY..

Well.. This can't be helped..
Still can skype though..
Even though I knew the two of us don't really bother to skype most of the time..
Haha.. [ Since you might follow my blog here LOL ]

Time flies faster than I expected..
While I am wasting my time doing anything but nothing = =
[ someone slap me please ]
There comes August in a blink of an eye..
Glad that Irene called me this morning to inform me that she had received the CAS letter from BCU..
Thus, now shall deal with the visa thingy, accommodation and then ticket..
Wish me luck =]

Cut

Before


After


To be honest
Not really intended to cut my hair yesterday morning..
Was then persuaded by my mom that there's a promotion by a hair salon nearby my house..
Actually, the promotions was just rebonding..
as I had rebond-ed my hair for the past two years..
Not really interested in rebonding again = =
oh well..
Would like to cut it soon or later though..
Since my long hair has been abandoned for nearly one year..
And never do a treatment after I dye-ed my hair to brownee color..
Pity my hair ehh..
XD

Changed a style which I always wanted to try while shorter my hair..
Was satisfied with it but it needs to set properly often to make it look nicer..
Duh.. kinda lazy here..
Will see for this moment and make the final decision whether if I wanted to hold this hairstyle to uk not.. XP

骗自己

一直以为自己变了很多
原来是自己在骗自己

啊

真是败给了自己

Islamic Art Museum

Thanks to Pearly and the others for inviting me to this little trip..
Am really happy to be able spending time like old days with you guys again..
Even though the days we were been together considered short..
Still..
You guys always makes me feel warm and joys..

Oh well,
Kinda regret for not bringing my DSLR there..
Since it's a trip to museum..
I was thinking that we were prohibited to bring camera inside..
So I brought digital camera with me instead..
Guess I was thinking a little too much back there..haha..
They didn't stop us taking photo LOL.. [ Malaysia BOLEH ]
So I took some of those photos while killing my time inside with the others..
[ They were ASKED by lecturer to be here for the RM6 ticket XD]
The textures and shapes was what I observing there while taking photos..
Historical information huh?
Duhh.. don't expected me to read.. Haha..

Didn't took much photos here..
Since all of those historical art craft were placed inside mirror boxes..
And while you taking those picture..
You have to consider the light of mirror reflection..
Which turns out you could hardly take any photo because of the angle you're able to do so to make the perfect composition or else..













Hoping all of my dearly friends will be doing great and able to pass this so called Hell semester with flying colors..
Support !!!

不后悔

最近很喜欢没事地想东想西
我想
一定是我太闲了
闲的自己的都乱了步调
说真的
我很讨厌这样懒散的自己

因为要出远门了
虽然日子看似很长很久
对未来要面临无数变化的日子
得做好一切的准备
因为我知道
比起他人
我是更容易让家人担心的那个
所以这时候
不能任性
不能再让自己矛盾
也更不能让自己没头没脑的后悔什么

既然都走到这了
就走下去吧

前段日子
说真的
我真的过得很愉快
虽然偶尔会这样想
为什么当初那么急着报名The One
为什么选Diploma
为什么不考虑其它大学等
但
若没有经过这段没有想很多就做决定的日子
今天的我
也不会是这样的我
嗯
不后悔
也不去后悔

虽然有时走累了
但停下来的时候
窗外的风景依旧是美丽的
不因为什么
只因为我还是我
那个追求进步的我

给那些还在奋斗的朋友们，
不要怀疑自己的过去
因为昨天的你，造就了今天的你
一个更勇敢的你

加油吧

I'm back.

Kyaa..
I am back..
I know it's been awhile..
Am so sorry for didn't update here..
My bad..
Wasn't really busy enough to forget this but I am sure I have a good excuse in this case..
A lot of things happen and I don't really want to recall it..
LOL..
Thanks for still following my blog anyway =]

Okay.. that's enough for the not very long greeting parts...
I doubt you must be wonder how is my life going on right now huh?
Here it is..
As I withdrawn from TOA about one month dy..
Doing nothing? Not really..
Am a driver since I have to fetch my sis and bro back from school everyday..
Am a chef since I have to prepare lunch and dinner for my family..
Well.. I can't escape it since my mom just recover from a big surgery and my dad has to work..
So.. as I am the most free-able person in this matter of time..
Doing housework is a must..
Sigh.. even though I tried to make myself useful but this is not the life that I wanted..
Cheers to all the full-time housewives for their hard-working!
Am really proud of them!

Thats great..
I miss so much of my dearly friends in TOA..
And I miss so much of my kakak who had back to her hometown..
Ish..
All the thing that I can barely not forget is to keep missing the person that I once cared..
Well.. I admit that I am a loser.. = =

Days without hanging out with friends..
Talking crap and 38-ing...
Even discussing assignments...
Was really bored..
I know I ought to get a part time job so that I can get rid of these boring emotions..
Well.. but I have to finish deal with the oversea stuff first before I got interview or something..

I wanna go for UK..
And I had the offer from Birmingham City University where PiPi is now studying at..
It is not that Curtin University in Aus isn't good..
Just a silly thought when I was young that if the three of us [ my big bro. my sis and me ] are studying in different place.. and our parents could choose the certain place to go for vocation..
and now my bro is in Aus..
So...ha.. don't laugh at me LOL
This is not the only reason though..

I have compared the cost in AUS and the cost in UK..
UK stands the cheaper..
[ I wonder if my calculation are wrong, but I've double checked ]
And I can get Honours in just 2 years of time studying in UK..
Well..
It's what I am afraid that the opportunity to get a job at there is difficult..
But, I will give my very best to accept the challenges..
In addition, I've a friend in BCU, so I have no worries whether if I couldn't get myself used to the environment and education style..

Going to UK will be at September..
So I have quite a plenty of time to prepare myself..
I havent accept the offer now and will make the final decision within next week..
Since I've applied another university in UK and my agent said that she will chase the offer for me..
It's my first choice since the university has a good reputation in Design course and the graduate prospects are higher..
Ahh..
Hope that I could deal over with this as soon as possible because I don't want to be trouble again and I could get myself ready earlier..

Cook.

Tada~
This is my first time and first try to cook a porridge..
Not a normal white porridge..
But mixed with lots of healthy food..
Such as: carrots, potatoes, anion and bla bla bla [ dunno the actual name of others ingredients I used XD ]
All those mixed with 4 colors of healthy rice together..
And for sure,
there were steps provided from a cooking book..
That's why I have the guts to cook for my family XP

For the beginning,
I wasn't really intend to cook it by myself..
But my dad and mom was in hurry to visit a friend's husband who hospitalized..
So.. well..
Why not trying something that I always want to do but not dare to do..
To be honest..
I do enjoying while cooking..

I know you must be wonder about the taste right?
My sis, my dad and my mom said it's good..
And my little bro who doesn't like to eat porridge also said it's nice..
Too bad the rice wasn't enough for all of us to take the 2nd round..

I did cook mee, vege, rice, egg, meat.... before
but not something like this..
I do really happy that they were satisfied for the outcome..

yummy =]

自私

一般上
朋友们听到我说要出国
都会问为什么
要不
难过的表情都出来了

说真的
我很不舍得
很不舍得放弃这一切
姐妹 朋友 家人 学校
我都很舍不得
对 没错
那为什么选择在这时候出国呢
迟些出 不能吗
能
凭良心说我能
我可以等
但时间不等人啊

想快快完成学业
这样就可以分担爸爸的负担
想看看外面的世界
让自己有更多的学习空间
想独立
不依靠任何人做自己想做的事
想坦白的面对自己
不再对自己说谎言

我跟我妹这样说
对不起，请原谅我这么自私
这么自私的对待家人
把身为家庭一分子的烦恼推给他人
这么不负责任的我 的一个姐姐
怎么能说原谅呢

妹当然说这样哪叫自私
但在我看来
我的角色是很自私的

我是累了
所以才想这么自私的对自己
朋友们都说我很好人
是吗
这才是真正的我啊
一个栽下面具后的我
怎样?失望吧

把剩下来的时间
好好的和家人相处
好好的照顾妈
我想
这样应该能让自己的那份自私好过一点吧

听听我的心声
看看我的心事
然后就这么算了啊
别把它说出去
谢谢帮忙哦 =]

Pearly's birthday.

The Garden is a really amazing restaurant..
For my opinion, their decorations is much more nicer than Full House..
Love it lots..
Even though the food prices are a little bit expensive..
Well,
having lunch or dinner twice a year at there should be no problem =]
Haha..
YiWen said she's gonna book the small room inside the restaurant next year for her birthday which coming once in 4 year [ Feb 29 ] XD
Really hope that I could attend ohh..
If not I might suggesting them to bring laptop there and skype with me during the celebration..
AM NOT CRAZY but serious~

Bought a palaroid to Pearly as birthday present [ of course all kap together ]..
Glad to see her surprised lot and so happy when she received it..
Haha..
who doesn't happy when received a present like this..
Something that is function-able and play-able..
YENG liao larh! ONs!

Spending time together with them really makes me happy..
Funny things could happen and makes us laugh..
I really don't feel like 20 years old but 19..
I am so young as they do!

What a happy day =]

Samba at Malacca.

Oh well..
If you must have me to describe the trip to Malacca,
I will say it's fun but tired..
Seriously my stamina wasn't enough to walk for the whole journey..
Lucky for me others too...
So it doesn't look like I am the only one who was looking pale out there XD
Haha..
What did you expect..
TOA students spend most of their time staying at indoor facing computer or sketchbook..
It isn't a surprise..

For the first time joining them..
MK, Pearly, Shuang, Fui, VF and KH..
I was a little bit excited at first because it's been awhile for me who doesn't have chance to went for a trip except my hometown since I've been studying in TOA..
Woots..



Bought some clothes which were quite nice at Jonker Gallery's shop..
Nothing much to say here but I believe we were all enjoyed shopping except for boys ..

Ahh..
Forget to mention here we went to A'Famosa's safari too..
It's my first time..
Well.. it's just like Zoo Negara..
Quite sad too see those animals in the cage without freedom.. =[



Anyway..
Hope that we got chance to do something like this in future..
Loves you girls =]

Envelope Design.

Well..
I would say that we are lucky..
that we were assigned to do this project..
For my opinion..
It is much easier than calender and cookies packaging as our senior did before in this subject..
Yet, I am aware that the marks that Mr.Tay give us might be more strict due to the overall easiness..
That why.. I am a little bit worry..
[ Maybe I am giving a little bit too much of stress to myself @@ ]

well..
I am really not a kiasu type..
but a kiasi one..

Although I am quite satisfied with my design..
But still looking forward in it to improve..
that's why I keep print it out once I refine something..
Even it cost 1.5 bucks each colour printing.. = =
While I know the colour separater [ a print production after the final design ]
cost 80 bucks..
LOL

I need to save my purse..
which usually no income but outcome..
my dad used to say that a purse without money doesn't called a 'purse'..
haha..
bless my money..
I need it for the trip to Melaka~