New Year Eve

2010重大事件:
1.考了车牌，拿了驾照
2.拥有自己专属的手提电脑
3.懵懵懂懂的进了The One Academy
4.遇见了改变我人生观的TouTou和Pipi
5.有了第一部车
6.考了IELTS

嗯，
就这样吧
告别了2010
告别了19岁的我
去迎接新的一年 2011

希望明年也可以一帆风顺的渡过
最重要的是
每个人可以快快乐乐
健健康康
还有 我的成绩能渐渐日上

好久没用成语了
哈哈
加油吧 各位~

The backup plan.

Okay..
Here is what I think..
I couldn't just run away from realistic world..
I'll just see what makes me keep going on..
For what I had dreamed for..
So I finally made some backup plan..

Applying
RMIT University, Melbourne
Curtin University of Technology, Perth
Queensland University of Technology, Brisbane [On going]

AUT haven't reply me, and I think my mom doesn't recommended me to go for NZ..
Thus after having a prudent consideration..
Curtin is my main option now...

Wish me good luck =]

雨天

心情很乱
整个人都很沮丧
当昨天大概知道英文成绩时
我恨透了自己
不只因为作文达不到6
而是平均在6
[虽然成绩还没到手，是打听过来的，但我不想相信]

当妈妈打听到这是她所谓的好消息时
我当时想哭了
也真的哭出来了

天啊 我怎么这么差劲啊
我真的有那么差吗
而我在她眼中就是那么差吗

我不准自己那么悲观 我说

晚上
她找了哥skype
那时她一年到头来最想做的事
平时只爱抱怨 只爱唠叨 只爱计较的她
当看到哥时 就会露出笑容 还有大家罕见的关心

所以我们都知道
只要她不开心
就让她上网和哥聊天

说回来昨晚
她又不是不知道我伤心得要死了
我不想再提考试的事了
却偏偏拿针来刺我的心
我投降了
平时都以百毒不清的态度安然度过每一天
可那晚不行了
眼泪 像阵雨一样不停的流下来

忍不住 关了电脑
我冲了上楼 进了房间 锁上门
到我宝贝的床上

那晚的雨下得意外的大 淹湿了我的枕头

原来 最近的下雨天 就是在暗示我吗

就在我以为可以痛痛快快的大哭一场时
我听到了敲门的声音
是爸爸 他让我开门
我带着哽咽的声音拒绝他
我真的不想让他看到我这个样子

爸爸的语气带着担心
而我 心软了 开了门
我真的没想到在我最难过的时候会有人来安慰我
因为过去的这十几年我都是一个人这样过得啊
谢谢你爸爸
让我有勇气面对一切
我一定会站起来的
谁叫我是张明尤
不会这样被打败的

我真的不想要让爸爸伤心 难过
更不想让爸爸失望

即使爸爸说他一定不会有很大的成就
因为他的背后没有女人支持
那我要把这句换成 女儿
我一定会一定会永远支持他
就算他打算提早退休也好
无所谓

因为他是我最敬爱的爸爸

Merry Christmas.

Today is Christmas's Eve..
My favorite festival among the year..
Why? Because it gives me a magical and joyful feeling..
Haha..
I'm a fantasy dreamer..

So here is what I do today..
My mom made a manicure appointment for me..
It's free.. [Since my parents are member of bla bla and bla.. so this is an offer]
My mom said that she need to do the housework..
So it would be wise for her not to do the manicure because it will be useless..
And that makes me the one who did accept the offer..

' It doesn't mean that I am not doing the housework..
Just lesser than my mom.. LOL
Wondering how long this nail polish will survive at my finger..
Since I am not a careful person.. hehe '





It is a winter flower looks..
Quite elegant..
Haha.. suitable for this season right?

Learn something from the manicurist..
Curi learn nia when she applying those nail polish at my finger nails..
XP It is a piece of art and I am totally falling into it..

Looking forward to next time my self design artwork for finger nails..

Anyway..
Ho Ho Ho... Merry Christmas~

Working..

First time went to my dad's office..
It's full of new furnishing 'scents'
And I am not going to visit..
I am going to 'work'..

Actually,
You could call this helping instead of working..
Since I am not taking any salaries from company..
Just giving them a hand because my dad asked for it..
I am excited =]

Joining those employers and employees busying was quite a thing..
Really felt bad for them..
I can see them hardly have time to sit down and have a cup of coffee..
Telephone was non-stop ringing all day!

Gosh.. the job that I asked to do is to re-arrange things that they packed in Shah Alam before they moved to Nilai..
Their 'stuff' was quite a lot @@

I was almost 'half alive' after finishing the job..
Sigh..
Now that I know doing the job what you really like is really important..
I will never ever give up for what I like..

Wake up call.

I was laying on my bed..
Figuring what should I do today..
The weather seems to be perfect for me to hold on my laziness..
'Hmm, maybe I should stay at my bed for awhile..'

Then, unexpectedly I heard my hp vibrating..
It was a sms from my agent- Ms Irene..
Telling me that a confirmation offer letter from University of Waikato had been forwarded to my mailbox..
Oh, finally..

What a good news and a great wake up call..
Immediately, I rush to downstairs to on my laptop and check my mail..
Good.. It was real.. LOL..

While I was reading the document..
There was a condition of offer says that I need to pass the IELTS with an overall band of 6 and a writing band of 6..
!!! writing..
Guess I need to pray for this moment till the result out..
Sigh...
If the overall band to be 6 it wouldn't be a problem..
Since I am quite confidence with my Speaking, Listening and Reading..
God bless please~

I was going to tell my mom about it..
But she seems emotional this morning..
Was weather the reason? I don't know~
She is really hard to discern..

Although I am glad that this Uni has offered me but my first choice is still AUT.. come on.. reply please~

Comic Fiesta 10'

What a tiring day..
After standing in such a crowded place for two seconds I started to feel breathless..
My goodness..
I wonder how could those people torturing themself in that place for half day..
It is really unbelievable!

Anyhow, you wouldn't know why this Fiesta called the most epic one in Malaysia before you have any chance to go for it..
There's nearly 1000 people cosplaying!
In addition, it gathered many animation designers to take part..
Seriously, I would like to collect as many anime-collections made by those designers.. Their collections was so awesome!
But the problems is I don't have place to put for them.. sobs..
And I don't really want to waste my money on it..
Sigh..
Guess what, I was thinking to draw my favorite anime character when I am free..
haha..
Will it be done? [ See how first lar ]











p/s: These photos wasn't taken by me but my friend. My camera was in Taiwan now with my sis~

It's Over.

A day for IELTS..
A day for myself..

I wasn't nervous..
I was excited..
Since I already did what I should do..
Do some practice tests..
Do some research about IELTS..
Do read some articles..
Do remember some bombastic vocabularies for common topics..

All I do need is some luck..
A good luck that keeps accompany me..

However..
I'm all wrong..
I have underestimate the timing problem..
'What use that if you know the answer but you don't have the time to write it?'
ARGH,
It doesn't really makes sense because I thought I was doing great..
Speaking, Listening, Reading .... and Writing..
The question was not as hard as I thought..
But for the writing part, I was failed to handle the timing problem..
I could just simple wrote a conclusion..
And I really don't think that my words reach the minimum..
ISH..
What to do..

Just hoping that I could still score 6 points in writing part..
Sigh..
Lets just wait for the result~

Determination.

Determine to dye my hair today since my sister is going to Taiwan tomorrow.
I might need a helper like her because I am a bit blur..
I don't want my hair to be weirdo just because of my clumsiness..
haha..

Followed by the constructions given with the product..
And some advices from my best mates -TouTou..
The steps turned out to be simple..

To be honest, I wouldn't dye my hair now if TouTou didn't support me..
Since she is an expert in this kind of things..
I'm very glad because of her kindness to teach me and guide me..
Credit for her.. hehe..

I choose the color - Milk Brown Tea Color as it was the color I think it fits my personality..
But I don't know if it really suitable for me..
The answer depends from you guys =]

* Will provide the photo next year. My hp camera couldn't take the actual color of my hair~

PD Trip

It should be called as photo shooting trip too..
Carrying my dad's DSLR going around along the trip..
Acting like professional photographer..
haha..
Everyone was cheated by me successfully..
I could say 'well done girl' !
Since this was my very first time trying to capture things with professional camera..
I'm feeling good XP















Doing some photography research nowadays..
Wanna keep myself improving~

星 . 心

有人说
心 一旦碎了 就永远合不起来了
即使合起来了 也会留下淡淡的伤痕

我的心
不知在多久以前留下了许多莫名的疤痕
当我准备再次站起来时 才发现 心 早已伤痕累累

有人问我说 为什么你都不会生气 之类的
我想说 生气起来会很累 而且心也会痛 所以就偷偷地把生气吞进肚子里了
虽说 这样可能会更伤自己
但我想说 或许这样大家的摩擦就不会太大吧
无所谓

此时 心 的某个部分正在碎
无所谓吗 ?
我不知道

从小 我就是家里常被打 被骂 被说教最多的那个
照理来说应该习惯了吧
都19年了
只有眼泪还不习惯
果然 我最在意的人是她吧

才发现
为了避免与她发生不必要的争吵
我让自己有了早睡早起的习惯；
为了让她看得起自己
一直努力地让自己进步

一直一直想出国
就因为只有在外地
她才会显得更加地温柔 更加地关心自己

就因为她
心 也因此留下那么多的疤痕

我不怪她
也不能全怪她
或许是自己的懦弱败给了自己吧

一个人的世界
真的很累

什么都不想做
什么都不想理

就让宁静的夜 及能寄托的床和枕头
陪我无赖下去吧

T-shirt printing

This was my final outcome of silk stencil on paper..
[ Credit to Jeff for helping me ]
The colors could use in T-shirt printing too..
It was so nice! Don't you think so?
[ Am I brilliant? Hehe.. ]

- - - - - --  - -- - - - - - - - - - -

Yea.. This was the thing that I found interesting recently..
Because with the materials that I have now..
I can simply create a image that I wanted and print it at T-shirt~
There was so many pictures that I wanted in my T-shirt btw..
That's why during Sunday morning market, I asked my mom to buy me 3-4 plain T-shirt..
[ Since it does only cost us 5 bucks each ]

Aiks..
Unfortunately assignments are seems to be over loading nowadays..
Gotta fasten my footsteps dy..
I will add this mission in the coming semester break!

不再

不再对过去留念

不再对未来憧憬

脚踏实地的走现在的路

向最初的梦想前进

Missing old days.

Recall back to old days.. when I was about 10 years old.
. . .. .. . . . . . .  .  . . ... . . . . .. .. . .. . . .... .. . . . ... .. ... ... .. . . . .
Madam Wong -
Ballet Teacher
Can be fierce or friendly sometimes
A mother of 2 children
Passionate about dance
... . . ... .. ... . . . ... .. . ..   . .  . . ... . . . . .. . . . . . ... . . . .. . .. . . . ..

I remembered that she asked us what we wanted to do when we grown up..
I was hesitate to tell her the truth..
Because I do clearly know that I don't want to be a dancer..
And I was afraid that she will dislike me just because of that..
[ I was once kena scold then cried, and after that I hate to dance ]
When it was my turn to answer her question..
My mouth naturally pop out with a word -
Artist or Designer.. [ I forgotten ]
But what made me surprised was not my answer..
It was her reply..
She asked me to draw for her a ballet dancer in future..
Lolz.. shocked.. but I do feel pleased..

Thinking back now make me realize that how funny am I..
I was trying to search back my ex- ballet classmate but I failed..
Sigh...
I wanted to keep my promise sincerely..
I wanted Madam Wong to be surprised...
And what do you think?
I missed them lots and lots..
Kinda regret for didn't keeping their contact number when I was about to leave.. =[

KitMun, HockLim, Rachel... where u guys been..?

Ms.Lazy and Ms.busy.

    

Yea.. you should call me Ms.Lazy nor Ms.Busy...
Since this semester is heading to its end..
Final projects and some troublesome assignments was always the one which serve us..
Tired, was the word that you will hear from me everyday..
ZZzzzz..

Too much things that I wanted to do but there's also to much things that keep delaying me..
I know that shouldn't rush it at the critical moment yet my laziness worm keep distracting me..
Ish..
I must focus and I need focus..
I cant give up like this, be strong ..

Pu z z le .

“ You are the piece.”

   We all fit together,
   smoothly, snugly.
   But so easily we can all be taken apart,loosing everything.

19th Birthday.

Someone in my high school happen to tell me that a girl who was going to 20th should start to maintain her beauty..
Lolx.. means that I still have 1 year to prepare lar..
Sobs, starting to feel like I'm not young dy ~

Thanks to those people who remembered my birthday.. =]
Especially to Pearly,  HuiShuang, Fui and MeiKay..
Who were really made me surprised when you guys intend to celebrate my bday with WeiLi..
And mostly for the dress which u guys picked for me..
It does really nice although I never tried to buy one for myself..
Ha.. Thanks ya!

--------
Ms.Kuan, a million thanks too for didn't mind that I come to ruin your party.. Haha..
To be honest, I was quite embarrassed since my birthday was the next day..
But your generosity does make me gam dong..
Happy Birthday to you and me ~

Mid Autumn Festival 10'

It's been awhile that we were having this kind of gathering..
Dad was busy with his company stuff..
Mom was busy as usual...
Mei was busy with her school stuff..
Little bro was busy with playing computer games..
And I, busy with dealing my assignments..

Everyone was busy..
But only in this special occasion..
We share the same joy..

What a memorable day =]

Sushi ZanMai .

When a vegetable bird meet with stu-bird..
What will you think it would happen?

Haha.. Lets just imagine and enjoy the time we been through together..

Having a great lunch with TouTou in Sunshi ZanMai which located at Sunway Pyramid..
The foods was quite nice and The price was worth too..
Although it still seems expensive compare to our daily lunch meal..
But we ought to treat our self good some time... =]

Chitchat-ing and 38-ing was the thing we do..
Ya.. for sure.. and sharing some disgusting topic like we did in old days..
LOL.. PiPi, don't envy us yah..
We felt something lost without you there...
So you must study well and get back here during your long break ya..

Love you gals..

Steamboat buffet .

Having a steamboat buffet with Pearly, MeiKay, VoonFei, Fui, Kael, Alvin and PhenPin just now..
Lolz.. This is my first time had my dinner with them...
I guess it could be interesting somehow..
Since they all are quite funny.. haha..

I knew Alvin was good at eating but PhenPin was amazed me too..
They both kept eating prawn.. And the amount of prawn they took was large..
= ~ = Didn't get it how their stomach can fit those prawn..
Yet the buffet was definitely worth it because of them..
It only causes RM 22 and I think this is the 1st time I ate a lot in steamboat..

Anyway.. Thx for the invitation and I did had a great time there..
At the end we all doesn't seems like want to go home although it was quite late..
Well.. Everything has an end..
 Fullstops.

New season.

Hooray..
Tinkerbell is coming up with a new series..
Which is Tinkerbell and the Great Fairy Rescue..
I always love it so much..
Can't wait for 21 September..

Well..
Here comes the new semester which is major in AD..
The course was slightly different with previous sem for no doubt..
As this is a short sem..
I guess our schedule will be slightly tight too..
First day for this semester and the lecturer had given us the final assignment brief..
Oh.. It is a minizine [ Mini Magazine ] project..
Gonna start my research for article and learn how to use Adobe Indesign..

Holiday mode >> Battle mode.

Made a new friend today.. Her name is Melina [ Not sure with the spelling ]
She is an international student who came from Philippine..
And she is a Chinese too.. Though she said that she doesn't speak Chinese..
I told her that it would be great since I can touch up with my speaking in Eng ..lolz..

Anyway..
I had decided to take IELTS by this end of the year,,
Since my mom was not confidence with me [ For what I feel ]
I finally persuade myself to go for tuition = =''
It was what I trying to avoid back in high school..
What to do..
If the condition allows me..
I will like to study aboard next year..

Hmm. my result for the previous sem was quite satisfying..
At least I reach my aim to get no 'D' ..
And my least score was C+..
Keep it up girl~
Hopefully I can get better and better result =]

Another day.

Quite lazy these days..
Laying at the bed, dreaming, staring and do nothing was the thing that I wanna do..
Even though I have something to post up here yet I still think that it was quite trouble = ~ =
And also going out shopping and gathering with friends [ not you, PP and TT ]
I just feel like staying at home spending time only..

Well, later night have a relative gathering and junior class gathering..
I was having a tough time to choose one of them..
Relative: long time no meet ....
Junior classmates: long long time no meet ...
Aiyo.. why all bang in one day T^T sob..
And same time too~

By considering the chances to meet them..
I finally make a decision to attend the junior classmates gathering..
It isn't just a gathering.. It's a farewell dinner too..
Since some of them gonna fly to Taiwan soon..
Also, J3G is my precious class ..
I can't abandon them...

Compare S3C2 [ senior class ] and J3G [ junior class ]..
The strong feeling which clear my lazy soul come from J3G..

Though it was both class that I like..
But by walking from behind class to front class makes me experienced a lot..
Not in the result way... their human character are quite different too ..
And I felt myself suitable in behind class more than front class...
Hmm.. whatever..

The coming semester..
Will I be doing well in the new class?
That's sure a doubt =]

- D Gray Man -

Hmm.. Seriously..

I had finished this animation and read the manga by spending a week of time..

Total 103 episode for the animation..

And I continued it with the manga which now only release till chapter 197..

Fuiyoh..

Kinda surprised whenever I look back..

Spending time watching anime and reading manga really makes time flies..

Here goes the end of the 1st week of holiday..

[ Sigh.. dunno whether I should be happy or sad with it~ ]

This anime was highly recommended by PiPi..

I had heard bout it last year but it doesn't really catch my attention by looking the picture of it..

Well.. but it was an amazing anime...

Leaving the art and design sense behind..

I do really like the 'meaning' behind the scene that the producer showing it here..

Which really makes me thinks a lot about my life recently..

Today have a farewell party for Chinese Orchestra 09' member who is gonna study oversea at Pavillion..

Ish.. so far.. and I'm not familiar with the road..

I have bad sense of direction some more..

I have to admit the fact that my secondary classmates said that I'm disappearing..

Even though I wanna attend yet there's no hope..

Since my parents are usually busy with their stuff..

To all my precious friends who are going to oversea..

Good luck and all the best ya ~

Hopefully you guys will have a great time there ~

Final week..

静静的
悄悄的
一切又来到尾声
或许是我们不容许时间过得太快
才会让自己在这段日子过得精彩和充实

有点舍不得
也有些难过
大家又要分道扬镳了

谁知道下一秒
谁又在自己的生活里出现呢

在这短短的八个月
是你们陪伴了我成长
是你们改变了过去的我

除了谢谢还是谢谢
你们将会是我最棒最棒的朋友

不管以后的我们在哪里
不管以后的我们还能不能像今天一样一起欺负对方
不管以后我们还能不能在吃饭前叙说倒胃的东西
或是一起吃辣，一起逛街，一起买纽扣...

我都会记得在我大学生活里
曾经有过你们

这除了是回忆
也是一份可爱的友谊的证明

加油各位
让我们一起努力去追寻我们的梦想吧

说不定哪一天缘分又会把我们带到了原点  ..

Always love you.. Go Girltitude !

Humpty Dumpty..

Humpty Dumpty sat on the wall,

Humpty Dumpty had a great fall.

All the King's horses, and all the King's men,

Couldn't put Humpty together again.

Life like a Humpty Dumpty...
We have to be careful.. have to be aware all the time..
A little careless, might let things go upside down..

Was wondering...
Did I tend to be too careful person?
Untill I tight my life by myself..

I wouldn't say that I'm not enjoying my life..
As I mentioned before..
I'm a contentment  person..
Yet, sometimes I can ruin my life by a little bit of troubles..
I tell myself not to think too much so...
But sometimes I really couldn't help with that..

Just like waiting for my mom yesterday..
I was like waiting for an hour..
And I felt dizzy and gonna fainted as I keep sweating cold ..
The weather was good but my body feel heat..
I dunno why..
I felt helpless and wanted to cry..
Did someone there care for me?
Negative thoughts coming up..
I know I shouldn't be like that..
But what to do when you are in this situation?

By keep telling myself to be strong and can't fainted in this situation..
I walked to the market nearby me and bought myself an ice-cream to reduce heat..
Finally I felt a little bit better..

Hmm.. things could be turned in another way when you did a little bit of things to change it..
And the desperate of the feeling you have..

I don't want to be Humpty Dumpty. ..

CGD 2 Finale.

Well well well..
PiPi 'blaming' me for didn't update any post just now.. haha..
Here goes my newly done artwork..
It's a movie poster..
Theme: Malaysian folk tales
Though it isn't reach my perfection..
Yet, that's all for it..
I can't figure anything out to refine it..
Ya, I know something there was missing...
Something which make it doesn't look perfect..

Sigh, compare to previous semester CGD final project for illustrator..
This is much more easier to go.. I guess..
But Photoshop has a lot of things to learn..
I haven't master it completely..
And I think I shall continue to study it during my semester break..
If not, I'm gonna forget it as I'm going to forget how to use Illustrator now..
Ish.. I'm forgetful..

Hmm.. having a presentation for Language Communication Skill 2 - Final Advertisement later..
Hopefully I'll be doing well during my presentation..

Good luck dear =]

今天

不喜欢今天

是它让我觉得很累
是它让我的心伤痕累累
是它让我的脑细胞缺氧
是它 是它 就是它

不要让我再遇上今天了

我不想我的眼泪就因为这样而浪费

我  真的很累了

Faintness

If I beg you..
Will you be willing to listen to me?

I am lacking of energy to do anything..
I feel helpless..
I can't even make things better..
Everyone do have their own problems..
And I know this is totally unfair..
But please try.. Try to listen to what others trying to say bout you..
I wanna help you..

Please don't say that there's no one care bout you..
Because I know that you care bout yourself..
That's make you have this kind of reaction when you're tired of something..
However, if you don't want to help yourself.. There's no one can help you..

To be honest..I'm tired..
I'm quite confidence to convince you at the first time..
But your reply.. let me regret to have the first thought..
I've no idea..
I don't want anyone to get hurt..
I tell myself that I have to try my best to convince you no matter what..
I have to..

Please.. for your own good..
Why are you thinking to end your life just because of someone?
Why cant you continue your journey by yourself?
There's so much thing you haven't get to experience out there..
Why are you so easy to give up..?
That will only makes you look stupid..

Don't compare yourself to others...
That will only make things worse..
Yea, it's not wrong to compare something else..
But it wouldn't make you happy either..
So why don't you just make your life simple and easier..

This is life..
Life that have many choices for you..
That's why, we have to treasure our life..

I believe.. Our destiny decided by ourself~

Dress Code Day.

Did you notice it?
TouTou, PiPi and I were wearing the same shirt to class today..
Haha.. It does really weird whenever we walked together..
Everyone seems to attract with us..
Lolz.. It's been awhile we doesn't have our dress code day..
Time flies..
Also, I'm wearing the new shoes my mom brought for me..
It's all white..
I love it so much..
My mom told me that there's no more shoes for me this year..
That wouldn't be a problem for me since I'm not used to wear this kind of shoes to class everyday..
Anyway... today was fun  ^ ~ ^

Field Trip.

I wont be online too often now..
Gonna rush my final assignments and study for my exam which coming really soon..
Thanks for spending time for reading this and my previous post ya..
I'll just briefly tell you whats happened today..

Went to Zoo Negara and Art Museum with my classmates...
We called it as a field trip..
I suppose it gonna be the most interesting thing in semester 2..
Well, it is..

It must be weird and funny when you heard I'm going to Zoo Negara right?
I can see from my friends reaction..
They was like " Are you kidding?.. Is this for real? ... What for? ''
Haha.. I dunno who suggested this idea.
I just only know that I had been a long long time never take a visit there..
So, why not going there without a reason? XP

Art and design class.. what did you expected they wanted to go there for?
Lolz.. I could see them busying spamming photo all the day..
I don't think they were get tired of doing something like that even we walked so much..
They seems enjoying..

[ Sigh, talking about photo.. How could I forgotten to bring my camera T-T ]

There's some snap shot taken by my classmates which I really likes it..
You're welcomed to look at my photo at facebook there.. ^ ~ ^

As for the Art Museum..
There was not much visitors.. maybe it's not weekend..
So we just running up and down, out and in the gallery to search the hint given by our lecturer..
It was a tired and interesting day..
You could see different artworks from Asian's artist..
This is no doubt a nice reference to our study...

But some how I couldn't manage to look through all the paintings there..
My legs are really pain and exhausted after walking and running all the day..
All I know that is I need to get a rest..

Hmm.. That's all for today..
I need to rush my assignments again..
And I really need a good sleep ..

Have a nice day~

Smile .

第一次
单独和男生出去

我们的关系很简单
纯粹就是老朋友见面而已

我跟他说
我才不怕你吃掉我呢

不过你为什么突然要找我啊？

他说是有关系到我的未来
也叫我不要想不三不四

我在这里不方便说他和我聊了些什么
我知道即使我说了
也很难让人明白

而我也不敢说我真的清楚他说什么

他说他要乐观
我点头的看着他
你一直都是啊   我心想
不过那或许是外表
你的内心是吗？
我不懂

你很像我的另一面镜子
这是我认识他七年来的一个结论
怪不得
在班上合作时 
我跟你原来都有同样的默契

嗯   你是我过去觉得最值得交的朋友

你说 “为什么我会要想找你    大概是因为你是我初中同学最要好的那位吧”
哈哈 你知道我那时听了很感动吗？
我中学时期确实叫了几位不错的朋友
不过这样跟我说的 你还是头一个
啊  我逊掉了

谢谢你
虽然  我并不了解你真实的状况
但我还是会永远的挺你~
加油..

Stres s.

I dunno what am I capable of..
I ain't confidence with myself..
I know it's just a matter of time to prove am I qualified or not..
But I still afraid of letting some one upset because of me..
Yea.. it's my image I care about..
And I don't denied it..

It's been awhile I didn't be a leader..
If I am not wrong, the last time I stood in front leading others was in primary school...
I had been vice president of my society in high school last year..
But it doesn't really counted in since I received lots of help from teacher and friends..
Hmm, I'm supportive type person I guess..

Well.. I was surprised when CCY asked me to be a leader in history final project's group..
She said she and Alvin had experienced to be a leader for the last semester..
Lolz.. I'm quite unsure looking at her when she asked me..
But it wouldn't be a wrong if you take a try right?..
Therefore, I couldn't help myself not to disagree for taking this challenge.

Here comes the stress now..
.. Not only for this project.. as for others assignment too..
As I said.. I'm afraid of letting others disappointing on me.. I wanna score high..
Also.. there's way more better people than me in this group..
Will I be doing great? I dunno..
Lets hope everything will be better..

Praise.

This is what I done for the whole night yesterday.. I did it until I slept...
[ Kinda forget the time I went to bed, but I'm pretty sure it was quite late ]
Really.. crazy huh? I think this is what I call I loves to design Advertisement..
Also, this is no doubt a designer life.. XD
Well.. this isn't the final yet.. The body copy still haven't confirmed..
Since my English wasn't that good..
I'll let my buddy check for me tomorrow.. =]

Anyway, sorry TouTou to let you wait for me to finish this advert yesterday..
I knew you was sick and I've to complete it as soon as possible..
Sigh, sometimes I tend to be clumsy and careless..
That's why there's lots of mistake I've to refine it today after ChongSern [ my LCS lecturer ] doing his critics..
Hmm.. lucky for me that he did saw our effort..  He even did praise us for doing a good job for the progress..
Our hard work did get what it pay for... Satisfying..

Ha.. I do really enjoyed when somebody praise me..
Like yesterday.. Although I didn't felt good with my coloring skills..
But I did get praised from friends and lecturer.. [ Thanks PiPi and Lisa ]
For the past few days I though this month is gonna be grey..
Yet, I can see the other colors now..

Praise.. is definitely a hidden power to encourage people moving on..

...
Here's my assignments that been given these days..
[1] Malaysian's folk tales movie poster project
[2] Today tomorrow maximalism project
[3] Stop motion for letterform design
[4] Advertisement presentation
[5] Form and Structure studies
[6] Coloring of Hue and Saturation
[7] Costume  Design based on mixed art style

There's others coming... I dunno whether I can handle not.. But I'll try my best to do it ~

w i t c h.

She is a witch.
Ya, I should knew that for long time ago..
Somehow I couldn't help myself not to fall and fall again in her spells..
I'm hopeless..

I was sleeping..
Yet, I heard that she said she wanna curse me..
I knew I did something wrong.
Something that will makes her unhappy..
But does it necessary to curse me as a punishment?
I'm someone related to her..

You can blame me nor scold me..
Just tell me what did I did wrong..
I need answer, not just a curse on me..
To tell the truth, it doesn't work on me..
Didn't anyone tell you? I'm special..

My heart was broken..
Not only for this time.. and also with the past incidents..
You really don't have to come closer to me just to use me..
Just tell me straight who am I to you...
I might considering lend you my hand with no regrets..

Tears are dropping..
It should be tasted salty but it's bitter for me...
Why? why things turned up like this..
I know I'm responsible for all this stuff..
But can you please kindly hear my reason?
It might be an excuse for you..
And I always knew.. Yet, I still wanna let you hear the deep voice in my heart..
It will be a dream.. I guess..
Since you never try to listen from others..
You're just a heartless witch with a stone heart.

After a sleep..
Everything is gonna back to normal..
And you're gonna forget that you hurt me before..
Never mind, I'm used to it..
Thanks to let me stronger anyway~

Wonderful day.

Had a wonderful dinner and supper yesterday with my lovely primary school classmates..
It's been a long long time ever since we met..
I think some of us didn't met since we graduated from primary school~
And thinking back now, it's been 6-7 years ady..
Wow.. Time flies!

Unfortunately, I forgot to bring my camera there..
If not, I shall upload some photo here..

Well, never mind.. I believed Candy will upload it at facebook there soon or later..

Hmm.. I shall not say we change a lot..  from the side of appearance..
Haha... pretty, handsome and tall that's for sure..
But the face are still recognizable ~

Ohya.. I was the shortest among those who attending the gathering yesterday..
Lame huh ^^'' I really should get myself a pair of high-heel shoes!

It's kinda funny when we met at the first sight at Sunway Pyramid's Starbucks there yesterday..
''Oh, I remembered you~  ..But what is your name ahh? "
This expression was showed by everyone yesterday I believed..
And so do I.. with a little bit of embarrassing and shy when I met with them.. Lolx..
How could I forget them.. I was their monitor like for 2-3 years ~
Yet, It's a great gathering with old friends..

Although there's only 13 people attend this event.. But I still felt satisfied with it..
Really.. Thanks to facebook for letting me meet back my old friends~
And also Candy, Beez and HaoYu for planning this event..
I shall organize another gathering next month..
Lets hope it will be..

There's endless topic to share to each other when we recall back our primary school life and talking bout recent life.. Therefore, we had our dinner and supper from Sunway Pyramid [Forget the restaurant name] to Bandar Puteri OldTown.. And the time was bout 6.30p.m till 12.30a.m [ the next day ].

It's been awhile since I reach home at this late..
Ya, my mom called me and said "If you wanna stay until that late with your friends, I'm gonna fetch you back.'' = ='' So I left earlier..  reach home bout 1a.m ..

Also.. my primary classmate said that my skin has gone whiter than before..
Haha.. They don't dare to ask me at first..
And I was desperate and curious to know what were they talking about me..XD
Then they asked me if I use Shokubutsu or what..
Imao.. is that related to why I become whiter? Funny..


Anyway, we all had fun yesterday..
Even it's tired.. but I think everyone is enjoying the gathering..

Will miss it..

做自己

[ 要做自己生活中的女主角 ]
这是我今天领悟的道理
要怎么说起呢
这个话题就从 PiPi 谈起吧
因为是她这么先说我的

不知道昨天怎么糊涂了
竟把Pendrive留在电脑室
这已经是第二次了
上次就是这样弄丟自己第一次买给自己的一份小奖励
虽然找不回了
不过算了  这不是重点
因为啊 那个差点弄丢的  也就是我第二个Pendrive没有不见
是 Operator Department 打电话跟我说的
叫我隔天去那儿领回
谢谢噢  不然又要让爸妈唠叨了

哈哈 话说回来
当我今天跟PiPi 和 TouTou 说起这件事的时候
PiPi 就说我像故事里的女主角
说真的  我到现在还不是很明白她的意思
"... PiPi, are you going to tell me what did you mean? " XD
不知道，于是我回到家和妹妹闲聊了一下
照我妹的意思  她说女主角是带点 特别 的意思吧
是吗? PiPi, 你是这个意思哦?

" 这是好事吗? "  我这样问我妹
她说是好事
哈哈  我很无奈噢
真的搞不清楚
不过想想  人总不能永远做配角吧

嗯  就是这样
不需要在乎别人怎样看我
就这样做我自己吧

掰掰

听一听
那微妙的声音
是你发出来的吗
还是隔壁家邻居发出来的
没关系  我都会用心聆听

说一说
你的精彩故事
不管结局有多好多坏
我都会支持你

朋友嘛
就是酱咯
不需要乱听别人说是非
因为真正的是非 是要靠自己去辨别的

近来开始写部落格
才发现原来我中学朋友们也蛮多有部落格的  哈哈
别说我迟钝
只是过去的我  不晓得自己有过精彩的生活
把  心  封闭起来

嗯  不要紧
过去就让它过去吧
没什么大不了
我  要一直一直往前走
不会再站在原地踏步了

掰掰  过去